Last Summer...

Ok so I know that nobody reads this anymore. But I needed a place to write what I was thinking. A place that nobody, or just a few of my close friends would read. I was going to write in a journal about it, but those are for little kids. Then, I was going to write a song about it, but I can't make everything I'm thinking rhyme, and it bugs me when a song doesn't rhyme. Then, I was going to post a note on Facebook about it, but there's too many people I have friended who I don't want hearing things like this. So I found my long lost blog. Ok, so it isn't long lost, I updated it 2 weeks ago, but I hardly ever update it anymore and nobody hardly reads it anymore. So anyway, here it goes.
With summer approaching, I am getting more and more excited by the day. No more school, no more homework, no more drama. Just relaxing and chillin' with my besties. What's not to be excited about? But as I think of what I'm going to do over this summer, I think back to last summer: the summer I easily call the best one of my life. Gosh do I miss it. As excited as I am for this summer, I can't help but feel miserable about it too, because it will never be like last year. Last year I did so much with my friends. Going to Water World was amazing and I'm sure as hell going to do that again this summer. Vacation was awesome and I know the one this year is going to be better. But there is one thing in my life that I'm 99.9% sure of that will not be there again this summer: him. I'm not going to name names here because if you are reading this, you should know who he is. The best thing to happen, and unhappen to me since, well...ever. I had hung out with him before when I was younger, in elementary school. It had been six years since I had talked to him outside of school. In school we had just talked about schoolwork when our desks were by each other. We had lost our friendship. Not hanging out with him anymore hadn't even phased me. I began to think of him as a jerk. But then, almost exactly a year ago, on April 24th, we found each other again. It was arts day at school and the next day, we didn't even have school. Funny thing was, that during the dancing portion of that day, I had mentioned him for the first time in years: saying I could tape him dancing and use it as blackmail. The first time I had mentioned him in years was on the same day that we hung out for the first time in years, only hours before. Anyway, that night I was outside playing basketball. I don't know why because I hate basketball, but I was outside alone playing basketball in my driveway. Then, he just came out of his house and started playing with me. We hadn't hung out in years, and here, in eighth grade, we were playing basketball together and talking together like two old friends would. It got later and later and soon his brother joined the game. A very unfair game I must say, as it was 2 on 1 with them against me. Ask them and they'll tell you otherwise, but I totally won. It started to get dark, and we went into the backyard. and just talked and hung out. It was funny, though, because usually with guys (especially guys that I haven't talked to in forever, or guys I hardly know) I am not myself. I am serious and somewhat quiet, not wanting to scare them away with my crazy, carefree attitude. But with him, I could be myself, as wild and crazy as I wanted, even though we hadn't talked in ages. And I actually felt like he was listening to me when I spoke. Sometimes I don't think even my best friends listen to me when I talk. But he listened, and months later could recite something I had said back on that very day. It's not very often you find a 'jerk' who can do that. So I came to the conclusion that when he wasn't with his awful friends, he was not a jerk. He was a sweet, funny, very cute guy. We stayed out until 11 that night, and we would have stayed out longer had his parents allowed. We mostly spent the whole time talking and to this day, I remember some of his exact words...(I'm going to insert a fake name for the girl)
Him: "Yeah so you know Jane? Well I was thinking about asking her out. She's cool and I like her. She's pretty too. You think I should do it?"
Me: "If you really like her, then yeah."
Him: "What about you, got any boyfriends lately?"
Me: "Psh! Me? Have a boyfriend? No way. I'm not pretty enough that anyone in their right mind would want to go out with me."
Him: "Sarah, you are pretty."
Me: "Yeah right, you're just saying that to be nice. What else can you say? Yeah you're right, you're ugly?"
Him: "Sarah, I wouldn't lie to you."
And that's where I stopped arguing with him. Because the way he said it and they way he looked at me when he said it told me that he wouldn't lie to me. Not just about that, but about anything. And that's when I knew that with him, I had a friend better than even the best of my friends.
We continued hanging out and playing basketball outside for the rest of the school year. Then in the summer, we put our pool up and were almost always swimming in it. Then we started to hang out over at his place. I remember those evenings so well. He'd be in the pool with his brother and my brother, begging for me to come swim. Sometimes I'd refuse so he'd just splash me until I was so wet I mine as well be in the pool anyway. And sometimes I'd give in and go willingly. I'd go put my swimsuit on and put my hair up (it took me like 10 minutes to do that). Then I'd go back outside and jump in the freezing cold water, just for him to tell me it was too cold and we were going over to hang at his place. So I'd run back upstairs, throw a tank and pair of shorts on, brush my hair, and run over to his place.
I have to go to bed now, but I'll continue this later. I haven't shared half my thoughts

Sad, but Excited

Ok so I haven't updated this in like 7 months. But I've been super busy and I kinda forgot I even had a blog lol. But today, I was bored so I read through all my posts. And in the one called Depressed from like exactly a year ago, I was sad because I was home and my vacation to Disney World was over. And I said that I would make sure I went back in 2009 even if my parents didn't want to. Well, I am incredibly happy to say that I was right. I am going back this summer for a week!...after I go to New York for a week! Yep, we're going to New York and Florida! We already have our hotels and stuff booked and we're staying at the Westin Times Square in New York and our super nice timeshare in Florida. Oh! And we're also spending 2 nights down in Tampa Bay before we go to Disney World so we can go to Busch Gardens! But anyway, we bought tickets to see The Lion King on Broadway in New York! Our seats are in the 14th row in the orchestra center (which means the very center of the theater)! But yeah, I'm really really excited for that vacation. It's gonna be bomb!!!!! But, right now I'm also really really sad. I just got back from my amazing vacation to Atlantis in the Bahamas. It was amazing! We got to swim with dolphins and I got to stand on one's nose and it pushed me around the lagoon thing. It was so cool! And Atlantis had this waterpark thing with all these slides and one was an 85 degree angle down a 6 story drop, then it went through the shark tank. I rode it 7 times lol. But yeah, it had like this water roller coaster and stuff like that. It was great. Oh oh oh! And Atlantis has the only 2 manta rays in captivity in the Western Hemisphere, so we got to see those. They were absolutely amazing and beautiful. And the resort was the most amazing thing I have ever seen. So overall, I have to say that it was the best vacation I have ever been on! But now it's over and I'm sad. Not that we had to leave (I am sad because of that, though), but I'm mostly sad about actually being home. I would rather be stuck at an airport somewhere now than here at home. Because everything is so stressful here. I mean, on vacation I got to relax and get away from the real world for a week. But now at home, it's like I have to come back to reality and face the drama at school and all the homework and tests I have. So I'm not incredibly sad that I'm not in the Bahamas anymore, I'm just sad that I'm here at home. I hate this place. I'm happy when I'm anywhere but here. So to try and be happy, I'm focusing on my next vacation and trying to plan and research that. But I just realized something: I am hardly ever truly happy here at home. Most of my happiness is just an act I put on so people won't ask me what's wrong. The only times I'm happy here at home are when I'm hanging out with Katie and Shannon (Love you guys!) and when I'm doing something out of the ordinary like going to the zoo or something. And I've realized that my life has no real purpose. I do the same stuff all the time. I stress myself out about going to school, when the purpose of school is to get a career. And the purpose of getting a career is to support your family. And we do all that and stress ourselves out about it...when we are all going to die and go to the same place anyway! So what is the real purpose of life? To be happy? I guess so, but when I'm here, I'm not happy. And because I've realized all this, I am now going to a therapist. I don't know if it's helping me yet, but I hope it does. Anyway, I'm just going to spend the next few months counting down the days until my next vacation. It's 88 days from today, which means I will only brush my teeth 176 more times, get my eyebrows waxed 4 more times, get my hair cut 2 more times, and go out to dinner 24 more times until then. That's how much I'm looking forward to it. And I'll be gone for 18 days, so it'll last a while, which is good.

The End of the World (aka Summer is just about over)

AHHHHH!!!!!!! School starts in 2 days! Actually more like 1 1/2 days. Eek! I'm so frickin' nervous. But I do have a pretty awesome schedule. I have off block 7th so on blue days, I can leave early (1 1/2 before school ends) when my dad can come pick me up. And I have Algebra 2 Honors with Anna thank goodness. I did not want to be the only Freshman in that class. Ooh! And there's gonna be lots more hot guys to obsess over (I want peach iced tea cause he got it!) ;-) lol So I'm half nervous, half excited. The rest of my summer has been boring. My aunt and uncle and cousin were visiting from Louisiana and that was ok. Except for my cousin broke our Rock Band drumset bass pedal, so that means no more Rock Band drums until it comes (which better be soon). And the drums are my favorite. Darn. I've been shopping a few times. Once was with Amelia. I got a blue and white striped sweater at Hollister and a brown cami there too. Yesterday, my mom took me major shopping. I got 3 pairs of jeans and a shirt at American Eagle, a sweater at Abercrombie, and a pair of jeans at Hollister. At American Eagle, we had a 40% off coupon because of our access pass, so the total price went down from $160 to $90! It was so cool! Oh and so when we were in Vegas, I saw this super cute pair of shoes, but they were wayy huge for me. They were white skate shoes with silver and gold swirls on the sides and a charm on them. The brand was Red by Mark Ecko. So I was sad that they didn't fit cuz I really loved them, so when we got home, we looked on the Internet and found them in a smaller size! I'm so excited! They're gonna come in the mail any day now! I've also been taking a hockey skills camp. I missed some of the on ice sessions when I was on vacation, but I still had 3 on ice, and 1 off ice session to do. I have my last on ice today. I met some amazing people there: A girl who's name is Sarah who is going to Lakewood High School next year, a girl named Bree who's going to be a Sophomore at Pomona, and this girl named Emily who's going to Oberon. Sarah and Emily will be on my team, but Bree will be on the U19 team. Darn. And next year, Arvada hockey is gonna have a U12 girls team for the girls 12 and under. They're at the camp too, but they're little buttheads. I hate them! lol Our off ice session was at a place called Total Hockey. It helps you with puck handling, shooting, and skating techniques. The skating techniques are done on synthetic ice there, which I hated. It wasn't like ice at all, it was like plastic and you're skates got stuck in it. But then they had these slidy board thing with bumpers on them and so you put these sock things on over your shoes, got on the board, and pushed off the bumpers so you were like sliding side to side between them. It was awesome! Me and Robin hung out and played box hockey. Its like an air hockey table, only on the ground and you use hockey sticks with a little tiny blade and it has these barriers in it and you have to get the puck through the barriers to your net and score and the other person has to stop you from scoring and score themselves. Me and Robin were like killing each other over it, but I ended up winning 2-0. Ya I got a shutout lol. Oh and so we scheduled out Spring Break vacation! Guess where we're going?!! (drumroll please...) THE BAHAMAS!!!! And guess where we're staying?! (drumroll again please...) in a condo at ATLANTIS!!!!! Yea a condo at Atlantis! I didn't even know they had condos, but apparently they have this fancy complex with them that we got into! WOOOO!!!!!!! So excited! They have like a bazillion water slides, even ones that go through their world class aquarium! I'm super excited!!!!!! So I guess my last 2 weeks hasn't been totally boring. I'm super nervous for school to start, but wayyy excited too. So watch out RV, here I come!!!!!!!

The Rest of My Vacation

Sorry I haven't updated in a while, but my vacation has been crazy. lol We've been to the San Diego Zoo, the San Diego Zoo's Wild Animal Park, Universal Studios, SeaWorld, Magic Mountain, Hollywood (Rodeo Drive, Walk of Fame, theaters and stuff), Disneyland, California Adventure, and San Francisco. And all I can say is that I really am ready to come home. Ya I can't believe I just said that, but I really do wanna come home. I miss my cats and my friends, and just being in my own house lol. But it's been a good vacation. At Magic Mountain I went on some crazy coasters. One of them was the Superman and it shoots you at 100 mph up a 41 story tower, then drops you down backwards. Another was The Riddler's Revenge and you stand up on it. Ya and it goes upside-down and all it was cool. Oh and on Goliath it drops you at like a 85 degree angle down a 250 ft drop then takes you down like 10 more steep drops. It was crazy. At the Wild Animal Park, we got to see them give the cheetahs a bone. It was so cool. At SeaWorld we saw the awesome Shamu show. I love Shamu. Disney California Adventure has a cool roller coaster called California Screamin and it was fun. It also has the new Toy Story Mania ride thing which is AWESOME!!!!!! It's like 3D and you have a shooter and you "shoot" out 3D objects and knock down 3D targets and stuff. It's awesome! Ok so when we rode the Tower of Terror, the guy who put us in the elevator was hilarious. So he was checking our seatbelts and he was all like "back row, put your hands up and tug on the yellow strap. middle row, put your hand up and tug on the strap. front row, put your hands up, tug on the yellow strap and do the hokey pokey and turn yourselves around" and then he stepped out of the elevator and said "cuz that's what it's all about" in a really creepy voice. so we all started laughing and he was trying so hard not to smile and then he did and we laughed harder and he covered it up by saying "oh sorry. I was just thinking about where you were going" and we all laughed more and then he says "i like to call it my lauging place" and then he did this evil laugh then shut the doors. It was hilarious. It was my funnest ride on that ride ever! The Space Mountain at Disneyland is so cool. They redid it and now you sit next to somebody. It's got cool special effects! And on the Splash Mountain, you sit by yourself like the Space Mountain at Disney World. It's awesome! Oh and there's an Indiana Jones ride that has a huge snake! It's so cool! The fireworks at Disneyland are great! They use songs from the rides and stuff and they have fire and the fireworks go all around main street. They also have these things that spin around and shoot out sparkler things, so they spin around and it's soo cool! We had a great time. And now, we're in San Francisco and we went on that really steep curvy street that's in movies and stuff it's awesome. But I don't really like it here. It has too many people and smells like fish lol So now, I just wanna go home. I'm leaving tomorrow, and getting home Saturday! I'm so excited! Oh and when I get home, my Aunt Kim, Uncle Jim, and cousin Daniel are visiting. Uncle Jim is a little weird, but Aunt Kim totally spoils me. lol So I'll see ya'll back home! Woo!

The Start of my Vacation! (lots of pics)

Ok so this post has a lot of pics. I'll list what they are in order, but I think they'll be above what I'm writing. So you'll just have to read and I'll say what the pics are in order and you go up and look at them. lol that was confusing. So we started our vacation on July 11th, 2008. First we stopped in Vegas. We went to M&M World, rode the crazy coaster on top of the New York, New York hotel, watched the fountains dance at the Bellagio 3 times to music lol, and went shopping a lot. Oh and we went to the Secret Garden, which is a fancy zoo for rare animals, and saw white tigers, white striped tigers, a leopard, and white lions. We also saw 5 baby tiger cubs. 2 white, 2 white striped, and a golden. They were so cute! We stayed at the all new Planet Hollywood resort on The Strip and our room got upgraded to one that was a bigger suite (it was like 10o sq ft bigger than a regular room) with a fancy bathroom. I'll post those pics on my next post, though, which I promise will be soon, but right now I have to leave to go to Universal Studios! I'll also post San Diego Zoo pics.

MY NEW HAIRCUT!!!!!!!!!

OMG!!!!! So this is just gonna be a short post, because it's late and stuff but...I finally got a new haircut!!!! Here's a pic but it's not that great...I love it! I got a straightener that'll straighten it like that and I can also leave it curly! I think it looks great! Leave a comment and tell me what you think!

Start of Summer

So I'll start off by saying how much I hate the frickin school board for making us go back to school earlier that usual. And all we get is a few more days off in the middle of the year. I would much rather have a longer summer. Grrr... Anyway so far my summer has been absolutely amazing and somewhat boring lol. I went to Water World with Katie and Shannon and we had sooo much fun! We got to climb a rock wall with the National Guard and they were sooo funny! (you don't have time?) (OMG they killed Katie!) lol And then they dragged me on the dinosaur ride. I hate that one! I closed my eyes through the whole thing. lol Katie was all like "You'll be soo happy if you just leave your eyes open for once" and I was all like "I did the 1st time I rode it and that's why I don't anymore" lol We had an amazing time! And earlier this summer I went to Shannon's scavenger hunt bday party! Me and Katie were so sure we were gonna win, but we came in last. lol So we blame that on the fact that our clues were all messed up. lol Then we played Bigger or Better! That was sooo much fun! Some cool guy gave us a huge piece of wood (ok that doesn't sound right). lol So we were gonna knock the other team out if they got anything bigger or better than that. lol It was great. And then I had a party at my house with Katie, Courtney Lemmon, Anna, and my friend Kayleigh who was visiting from Tennessee! We had sooo much fun! We played Wii, then we swam at like 12 at night lol and heard some freaky noise lol and then we watched the Simpsons Movie. Everybody but Courtney stayed the night. Then last Friday, me and Katie and Shannon had our Lord of the Rings sleepover. Ya they were kinda confused about everything, so we just ended up taking pics of all the hot guys in the movies. Who can't resist a hot blonde elf? lol And we got into a rice krispie fight. I totally won. And me and Katie had these amazing pancake things for breakfast! Stupid Shannon had to leave early...Grrr... lol And Katie's basement is sooo amazing! Me and Shannon are gonna like go over there every weekend and live in there. lol She had these amazing drinks called Orangina and they rocked! Snaps for Orangina! This week has been pretty fun too. Monday night me and Jay went swimming and then we hung out with Sean, and his friend whose name I can't remember. lol Then my bro split his heel open and had to go and get 5 stitches. We were at the hospital until 12:45 that night. Ya I was sooo tired the next morning. And then last night there were these foxes in my yard so my family and the Rocks were all outside talking and looking at them and then everybody went in except for me and Jay and we were just sitting on the grass talking. He really is nice when he's not around his obnoxious friends. lol Ooh! And I'm going to Cali and Vegas in 15 days! Yay!